What Was Meant to Be

Remember last month, when I lovingly posted about my anniversary, at 5 years and 5 days?  Well today is another 5 year anniversary mark. 

Until last month when I actually blogged about my anniversary and when it hit me like a ton of bricks, I didn't realize how special my wedding date was in more ways than one.  Aaron and I were planning a September wedding, Labor Day weekend to be exact.  Once we found the place where we knew we wanted to be married we checked the dates they had available.  The Saturday before Labor Day was not available.  We even checked for the Sunday since our guests would most likely be off for the long weekend the following day.  Unfortunately the only date available was June 11th.  After much debate and figuring out my school schedule and also my bridesmaids school schedule I decided June 11th it was.

I don't think I've ever blogged about my Grama (which is honestly a shame in itself) but today I'm going there.  The reason she is relevant to this is that 5 years ago today she passed away.  My Grama attended my wedding in a wheel chair much to her dismay.  In December of 2002 she was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer.  By the time my wedding day came around she was not doing great.  She could still walk but we figured it would be less tiring and easier for her to be in the chair.  I felt so lucky just to have her there as each day was a gift in her short life. 

After the wedding Aaron and I left the next day for an 8 day trip to Hawaii.  When I got back from the trip my mom let me know that the day after my wedding my Grama could no longer walk down her hallway by herself.  I knew in that moment that she held out for me, pushed on for me so she could see me walk down the aisle.  I only visited her one time after I got back from Hawaii, partially because she was not very lucid and was sleeping a lot and partially because it was hard to see her like that.

I don't know why it didn't hit me sooner than 5 years later that if my wedding had been Labor Day weekend she may not have been around for it.  But when it did all I could do was smile.  I knew then that June was what was meant to be.